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Might give them a go myself as they sound quite nice

That looks like a really yummy recipe Mazzy, i might have to try it too!
Sarah i remember the days with my first baby going through the no weight gain for a couple of weeks and struggling with breastfeeding, but it did come right and once it did it was great!!
Ashlee woke at 7.30am this morning which was great, however i could not get her to sleep until 12 today, and that was because i had had enough and put the girls in the pushchair and went for a walk! she has now been asleep in there for two hours! I felt sorry for Breanna beacuse i kept promising her to do things with her and whenever i put Ashlee down she would wake straight back up again...
On the way home from our walk i stopped at the park to her her play on the swings, i feel much better now that she had gotten to do at least one thing with me today... Its definately hard work!!

The bikkies are yummy, I think they did good things for my supply with Isla, I hope they help. If anything, they are good comfort food while you are still doing something good for your supply.
Sarah my dear, I am sending you the hugest hugs right now. What a hard road you are having, you poor thing. You are doing your absolute best and all Caleb will be feeling is loved and cherished and cared for. You are giving him the best start possible, he WILL start putting on weight, some babies just don't at the start and there's no way of predicting who or why. Weight gain is just one part of the whole picture - he's otherwise healthy and looks just perfect in the photos you've shared. There will be a turning point for you, things will change.
I'll also add that I think every mum gets these feelings of being helpless and feeling like they're useless, for one reason or another. It's one of the side-effects of being a mama and actually means you're a pretty darn good one. I felt like such a failure for not picking up on Isla's jaundice when we first brought her home, and she was dehydrated because my milk didn't come in on time. My midwife was concerned about how yellow she was and really made me cry about her being dehydrated. It made me feel horrible and like such a useless mum. But we got there in the end, had to hand express into a shot glass and mix my little bit of milk with cooled boiled water and feed her from the cup, but she picked up and was fine with no long-lasting ill effects. If anything, coming through such a tough time made us really bond as a family and has made this second time around much easier. I know it will be the same for you.
Just don't go eating any cow pats, ok? They won't help!

hooper, so sorry to hear about your grandad

sarah

to everyone

Afternoon all,

Well tried to get ahold of mw she is away untill next week. (thanks for telling me) Got ahold of Ruth went in to see her, i have a infection in my wound site oh yay! so am on ab's, and i still have thrush in my boobs.

Hopefully Ruth will make it out tomorrow to do Xavier's 4 week check. Man it's gone quick.

How's everyone's day going? hope it's better than mine.

Sarah I hope it all starts looking up for you really soon, all any mum wants is the best for her children and it hurts us when we don't feel we're doing that. As for the not being able to have a natural birth I can completely relate, after 3 c-sections I feel very inadequate and like a failure in that area (2 failed VBAC's).

Hooper, so sorry to hear about your granddad

Gotta go babys needing resettling again, check in later

how exciting gill!!! YAY for your friend

She had a girl! Thats all i know at the moment. She has broken Ruths run of boys

Also I hope you don't mind but here is my very long birth story

Monday morning around 5.20am I awoke to a contraction. Thinking nothing much of it I got up & went to the toilet where I had another contraction. I headed back to bed & gave Hubby a little nudge & commented that maybe today was the day… He just cuddled up & sleepily nodded before going back to sleep.
After yet another couple of contractions, I gave Hubby another nudge & told him to wake up so he could time the contractions: roughly 2 &1/2 minutes apart and about a minute long! Okay time to call my midwife!
So around 5.50am I was told to see how things went & to call Ruth back when I felt I needed her. Then I had Hubby call my Mum as I headed to the toilet again.
From the toilet I started telling Hubby what I needed because I was sooo not organised! Main things being to tidy up & get me a hot water bottle because the blimen contractions hurt!
Less than two minutes after getting the hot water bottle though, I was ordering him to run me a bath because the contractions felt so intense & painful. I knew that it was likely that things would slow down with getting into the water so soon but I didn’t care, anything to lessen the pain! And at first it did seem like things were slowing down but then it became intense again. I’m not sure what time it was but I asked Hubby to call Ruth because I couldn’t do it anymore. So she let Hubby know she was on her way.
I think it was about 8am when my Mum arrived with my little sister. Mum came straight in to see me & took over. By now my boys were awake & demanding breakfast so my sister & Hubby sorted them out.
I was crying & telling my Mum that I couldn’t do this & that the pain was too much for me to bear & I wanted to go to hospital for an epidural LOL!
8.10am and Ruth had arrived. She did an internal with me still in the bath and announced that I was not going anywhere as I was about 6 maybe 7 cm dilated! I couldn’t believe it as I had honestly thought I was still in early labour.
It gave me a second wind & with Mum reminding me to breathe through my contractions I carried on as planned.
Hubby had been given the job of setting up & filling the birthing pool which seemed to be keeping him happy & occupied. The second midwife was called & was asked to bring some gas with her. I was looking forward to using that gas!!
15 minutes later though I felt abit of pressure & pushed out membranes so Ruth was quickly on the phone again saying “forget the gas just head straight here”. We live rural so it is abit of a drive.
There was a little bit of meconium in my waters but nothing major & fetal monitoring showed that Bubs was happy still. Also Ruth reassured me that Bubs had most definitely moved from a posterior position to anterior.
I think it was around 9am that I moved from the bath to the birthing pool which was set up in the dining room. Also my Grandma arrived which was a wonderful, lovely surprise. I was feeling the need to push but was worried that I was not dilated enough so resisted the urge & begged Ruth to check me even though she thought I was fully dilated. I think the backup midwife Meredith arrived around 9.30am. Ruth checked me & found I had a small anterior lip on my cervix but was able to push it back so at 9.40am I started pushing!
I felt like a total animal with deep grunts that I couldn’t stop coming out of me as I pushed. I only stopped to ask if the head was moving at all. I think everyone was laughing at me a little bit as I was so anxious to make sure Bubs was coming out in between pushes! I kept putting my hand down to feel the head & it was reassuring to feel the head coming out more & more and quite easily too.
Hubby was sitting behind me (he didn’t want to see anything if he could help it!) while my Mum, Grandma & the two midwives stood watching in the front. Even my sister & boys came to see how everything was going before retreating back to my bedroom with my boys to continue watching videos.

At 9.58am I welcomed my beautiful little girl, Erika, into the world. She was brought out of the water & into my arms after only 18 minutes of pushing.
She weighed in at 8 pound 15 ounces (4.04kg), head circumference of 38cm & length of 52.3cm.
She took to the breast at 10.05am & as I got out of the birthing pool a few minutes later, out came the placenta. No tears, grazes or anything!
It was perfect...


Oh & apparently Hubby did see Bubs head coming out at one point & was soooo not impressed! My midwife laughed at him as he has no worries getting his hands dirty right up to the shoulder when it comes to our cows giving births!!

Thanks!!
It all seems like a dream now. I have to keep looking at Erika & pinching myself LOL