Really glad you rang them and are feeling better, good on you for letting them know.
I have been talking about similar stuff with DH and my mum about my birth experience, I don't feel good about mine either and am really nervous about the next one. If there is a next one. You are not alone in those feelings. It is hard eh, when you seem to hear all these people who have such wonderful, meaningful births. Your mum sounds like a wise woman Nikki, that is advice I probably need to take on board too. I totally felt like I 'failed' in the birth stakes. But in the end I have my darling girl and I'm here still, so it's not a competition or test that I 'failed'. Right?
For the record, I didn't have a CS. Sorry if I shouldn't be posting in here, just struck a chord with me when you talked about your feelings to do with your birth.