dont mind me just rambling

Not sure what im really gonna write here, pretty much just what comes out of my fingers basically... man that sounds stupid..hahahaha

anyway its been 9wks since the dnc (wow almost 3mths) where does time go, and we are currently on our tww.

I am wondering if i will be one of those lucky ppl to fall pregnant pretty much straight away, i have had one af since the dnc and have the go ahead from the hospital.

I am scared that i wont fall pregnant or that it will take 10mths again or even longer...BUT at the same time i am scared that i will fall pregnant straight away (which is what i want), i keep trying to tell myself that if i do fall pregnant that until i see the heartbeat and have a scan at 11wks and see that its growing well that i wont bond with the baby, but i know me and i will bond as soon as i know im pregnant, and i cant go through that again.

Its interesting i was talking to my mum last night and she said to me "oh btw are you pregnant, i was doing something the other day and the thought came through that you were pregnant" which is really funny as i was just sitting there reading a book when i had the same thought. all be it fleeting.

I am trying not to read much into anything, i am ignoring the sore boobs, the sensitive smell, the bleeding gums when i brush my teeth (which i only get at the beginning of being pregnant)...see i told you i wasnt reading much into it...

I will be testing around the 2nd/3rd of November so only a week and a bit to go....although apparently i can test in 7 days (going on a 28 day cycle) but im not sure what my cycle is anymore...

arrrgghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

thanks Teresa, its one of the reasons i post on here, is because i know im not the only one going through or have gone through all this, and it does really help to get it out and to know that others understand

Ok, My DH thinks I am mad as I know we were lucky and fell pregnant first try and had a lovely easy pregnancy. We want to try again in a few months (yep, close together) and I said to him that I am prepared for a mc. He asked me why and I said because they are so common and I would rather expect that it is probably going to happen and then when it does I wont be too upset I will just think "oh well, that happens" and move on (I'm sure I ont but I am trying to think realistically). He thinks that is negative thinking as he is convinced everything will always be ok.

So we worry for good reasons and no reasons and I am not even sure if this post has a point or is even relavant.

What I meant to say is....good luck!

Hang in there Kazzle, TTC after m/c, and then pregnancy after m/c is a bumpy ride, and to be honest, I'm not sure I'm over it even now. But you will be fine, you WILL have another baby and it will help you to heal. And we're all here for you!

thanks guys, you are wonderful, i am feeling so much better today, all be it really grumpy, cant stand talking to Kent just wanna rip his head off....poor guy.

I feel like a stiff drink and cant...lol

oh well will have to go with banana milk and chocolate

geez louise one minute im fine, the next im nutting of and the next im in tears...i hate this time of month...grrr

Ok Kazzle, I'l be honest. My mc last year is not widely known, but I can tell you that I know exactly that feeling. I had a VERY faint BFP yesterday, and now I'm super worried at every little twinge in my tummy (which isn't unusual for me, have irritable bowel syndrome - mild case but twinges all the same!) So while I dont even know if I am pg (will test again on Monday) even now I'm worried I may feel those feelings again and lose something I barely have.

So while I have just rambled and been of no good use to anyone, what I was trying to say in my own foot in mouth way is that what you are feeling is so normal, and I'd be worried if you weren't feeling it, as it would be a classic sign that you haven't worked thru it far enough to cope with another pg. So hang in there chicka, and take the advice of your ole' Aunty Bumblefoot, who I might add, is a Psychology Uni student (but don't ask me about my exam scores...

Keep your healthy eating and drinking up, and chase it all down with copious ammounts of chocolate. It is clinically good for you, trust me, Aunty Bumblefoot knows these things! And, I might add, has a large candy addiction that she refuses to seek treatment for...Have chosen more of a maintenence option!

Hang in there luvvie, it does get easier. Praying for a healthy happy stucky bubba for you. And me....!

good luck and lots of