The tears have arrived

That is beautiful BK, thank you so much, it was perfect.

Merlinfluff there is another beautiful one in charting from TheKelly, page 286 that helped me too. Have a read.

Oh!! Now I'm REALLY crying again. That was really really beautiful. Amazing how poems can move you so much

I love this one too, really describes how it feels to love the little one lost too early

Just Those First Few Weeks
By Susan Erling

For those few weeks -
I had you to myself
And that seems too short a time
To be changed so profoundly

In those few weeks -
I came to know you...
and to love you.
You came to trust me with your life.
Oh, what a life I had planned for you!

Just those few weeks -
When I lost you I lost a lifetime of hopes,
plans, dreams and aspirations...
A slice of my future simply vanished overnight.

Just those few weeks -
It wasn't enough time to convince others
how important and special you were.
How odd, a truly unique person has recently died
And no-one is mourning the passing.

Just a few more weeks -
And no 'normal' person would cry all night
over a tiny unfinished baby,
or get depressed and withdraw day after endless day.
No-one would, so why am I?

You were just those first few weeks my little one
you darted in and out of my life too quickly.
But it seems that's all the time you needed
to make my life so much richer
and give me a small glimpse of eternity.

My baby died at 11.5 weeks and to be honest I fel totally fine straight away after D&C - I felt I could've been back at work that day...but of course I wouldn't. General didn't make me feelsick..although I did sleep for 3 hours that afternoon so you do feel exhausted. But yes, I'd say you would definitely be "physically" ready for work on Monday if you have it done Thursday - but don't put pressure on yourself...just see how you feel.

I made the big mistake (it was really really dumb of me I know) of going to the gym 3 days post D&C ...I wanted to feel "normal" again and I am the most impatient person I know. Anyway BIG mistake and that's when the pain etc started....I was fine up until that point. So yes, please don't do what I did - just let your body rest...you deserve it after the ordeal you've been through. All up, it took my body about a week and a half to get back to normal .

I had the D&C 5 days ago, came through the general really easy, was physically back on my feet later that day (had op at 8am). I'd say you'd be fine going back to work the monday after, just take it very easy on yourself.

Only reason it seems I am feeling as terrible now as I am is picking up blardy norovirus from an outbreak at the hospital . Sheesh.

s Bosta. i really wish i knew what to say as you have always been so lovely and know just what to say but i honestly dont have the words

as you can see from all the posts we are all here for you no matter what you need

Oh my lovely Bobby... I dont think I have cried so much for someone in a long time!

As others have said, I found the D&C actually helped me, once the baby was out I could move on and think about starting again.

I too cried the entire time, I was crying until I went to sleep and I was crying when I woke up and tbh I still cry now....

The physical recovery is quite quick really, just like a really bad AF but you do have to look after yourself.

I had mine done a Monday & my intial dr's certificate from the hospital was for 2 days (including the monday) so obviously you are physically capable quickly but I took a week off (well from the previous thursday when we found out and the whole next week) as I couldnt stand the thought of my colleagues pity gazing at me.

I dont remember how long the cramps lasted but I do remember that the pads I got were scented and if I forget and get the same scented ones I vomit when i smell them.. funny nearly 2 years on and it still has that effect on me.

Hugs and hugs and hugs.

I was told my period would come between 4 and 6 weeks after my D&C. Most people seem to cycle pretty much as usual taking the D&C as the last day of your previous cycle, from what I've read. Hope that makes sense.

*hugs to you again*

Last night I was doing so well but then this morning the ms decided to come back. I've still been taking my pills for the nausea but this morning I had more vomiting again and just feel so sick. Isn't life mean sometimes, you'd think it would give me a break after everything. Not long to go now though before it's all gone though. I think I will be relieved as I've had time now to accept it. This morning when I woke up for a moment I didn't remember everything, then I did and it was like "ah, that's right" and I just lay in bed feeling the burden of sadness. Mornings must be my sad time and when I feel it the most. Writing helps though as it gives me a way to release things I feel rather than bottling it up. I don't expect you to reply to this, I'm just writing for me. Maybe I should start a blog instead of writing here, but I do like this place. I could treat this like a blog.
The appt is at 11am today. That's when they'll go through everything, and like Mel said give me all the options. Is there an option to have a healthy living baby? I don't think so. That's a shame. I would like that option. My SIL is coming with me today though. She's great, I'm lucky to have her.
I need to wash my hair but can't be bothered. I'm sure once the morning blues pass I'll be back to my normal self so don't worry too much that I'm getting too sad. It'll pass. oops, I have a few tears now. I don't even know why they're here. I've accepted everything but I just have lots of sadness. It's not a sadness for loss, or death, it's just overall sadness. I don't know, maybe letting all these feelings loose like this isn't good.

Thinking of you today hun and its one of lifes cruelest thing that you keep having symptoms....

Hugs, hugs, hugs.