Aww hun. I did think you were looking very thin the other day when I saw you.
As you know, my baby is much the same so I know how you feel for that part of it. Sorry to hear your DH is being such an arse
I've wondered for a while whether I was depressed, but it can be so hard to distinguish between exhaustion and depression. In the end, I'm fairly certain that I'm *just* exhausted, because on the rare occasions I get a decent sleep (ie. a 3 hour stretch - hard to imagine that counts as decent), I feel great and mostly back to my usual lively self.
I had a pretty crap week 2 weeks ago, and began to wonder again - I was getting angry with DD, and had a much shorter fuse than usual - then last week AF returned, which explains the bad week. I've always been a bit prone to PMS
Could the return of AF be a contributor for you too?
Have you seen a nutritionist? See if you can get your GP or your plunket nurse to refer you. They should have some ideas for making sure you are getting a decent diet, what with the restrictions and breastfeeding draining you so much. Also, come along to LLL again
There are several dairy-free, gluten-free, BF ladies there who are sure to have some helpful ideas (and there is plenty of GF, DF cake for you to gorge on too
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I think I might have suggested it before, but if you can get yourself in a supportive environment (perhaps go stay with your folks? Or you can come stay with me, and we'll stay up all night together?! Sigh) I think it would be worth experimenting with reintroducing dairy. For the sake of your health as much as anything, it might not be a problem for DS any more. My DD was horrifically intolerant when she was little - to the point where if I ate the tiniest bit of dairy, she'd start screaming about 20 hours later, and keep at it for 12-18 hours. Now, she's eating a couple of tablespoons of yoghurt, and I'm having cereal for breakfast several times a week. So I think you could give it a go. Perhaps give DS half a teaspoon of yoghurt and see what happens? That way, if he gets crook, your milk is still good (I had problems if I accidently ate something, it still took ages to pass out of my system so it would get worse before it got better, whereas if you give it direct to him, you can stop it at any point). I'd do it in a supportive environment, so if he reacts, you've got people to take turns cuddling him/you and mopping up puke. And if it's ok, you can gradually try more and more. For DD at least, there were no lasting effects of the accidental dairy challenges. Once the 18 hours of hell had passed, it was back to how it was before.
Damn, DD is awake. Hope you feel better, and you know I'm here if you need someone