Getting past "it"

Me who is someone who pushes everything away like you do. I am finding councilling really good.

I wish I had an answer to this. I'm definitely going well round the bend, driving myself and my husband crazy. I've been too scared to add myself to the rest of the January 09 mums, but by my dates am due 2/1/09, making me 6wks3days. I've had a very traumatic history as far as pregnancy goes, I had 6 miscarriages, and also made A Heartbreaking Choice in Dec 03, sadly this baby would not have lived to full term and we had to end the pregnancy at 21wks which was completely devastating. I am lucky enough to have 2 gorgeous healthy children. This pregnancy is a surprise, but a happy surprise (if all goes well). I've been having slight spotting the last few days, not bleeding just like staining and very slight, but enough to really throw me into a spin. I saw my dr today and he has given me a referral for a scan and HCG bloods. I will ring for the scan appt tomorrow, but I don't remember exactly when it is that the heartbeat is visible, and as for the bloods I have no idea what my HCG should be at 6 1/2 wks. I have been through all of this plenty of times before, but not for several years and I guess I didn't try to remember details. I'm just trying to stay positive and get through each day right now, and trying to ignore some of those compulsive toilet checking urges! I did get a jigsaw puzzle to try to have something to focus on without doing anything strenuous, but focus can be easier said than done. I liked what my dr said today..oh of course with such an inconvenient due date your baby will be fine ;) All the best for getting through this tough time, I truly do understand.

i didnt let myself believe i was going to have an actual baby till i was about 5 months pregnant ... sorry prob not what you wanted to hear. but i was in complete denial and ended up missing out on so much. but its how we cope and you will get there in your own time. if you want a mindless game i dont know about the boggle one emma mentioned but scamps have a noughts and crosses game that is a real time killer and mind number!

bizzy-very true..i missed so much too!:(

try not to over think it, hard i know but you cant dwell on what has happened, just try to think positive. There is no reason you would miscarry this time so you need to look on the positive side and not the negative and analysis it right down to the fact that its the same day cos in all reality, that means nothing but is just making yourself crazy. when i miscarried with the twins i just kind of felt from the start it wasnt going to happen, i couldnt see myself with a baby (or two) at the end and yep i miscarried. with addison it was completely different but i still stressed and worried so i just tried not to think about it to much and got on with things which is different to discecting every little thing which sounds like you are doing. I dont mean to sound harsh but its not doing you any good and its not going to change things in the long run.

Hmmm i do have a pregnant brain..repeating myself like that..oh well i guess it will get worse before it gets better!

Yay for the heartbeat Genie and definitely come and join us.
I am gonna go to the docs and get my referal form and hopefully go next Tuesday, DH is on earlies so should be able to come with me.
I feel so ill at the moment that I think everything must be ok and I'm too tired to worry anymore.

I hope these next few days pass quickly for you Marisa

OT - OMG Emma you're down to a few weeks?! It doesn't seem that long ago I was reading your post abut being preggers!