Thinking about going back on the meds..

I would normally say go ahead and start taking the meds again butive been that mummy lately too so know how you feel kind of. Im just yelling and going off at the drop of the hat. Maybe I should be starting my meds again too. Really didnt want to but its getting a bit ridiculous and i soooo dont want to be this type of mum.
what to do aye?

I think that I will bite the bullet and go to the doctor on Tuesday and find something that will be ok to be on while ttc.... I do have some Aropax here that is "leftover" from when I cam off them in October last year. But am hesitant to start them just incase the doc wants to put me on something different..
Think I am stressing too much about this business that I am going to start and the usual things (Clean house, clean kid, clean me....cooking, oh everything!!)

Anyhoo...I'm actually not concerned if the deal is that I need to be on these things for the rest of my life. I figure, if it is going to make me a lot more stable, then sign me up!!!

So, I have spent the day trying to breathe each time I feel like I am getting wound up. Seems to be working. Have only gone off at Ethan once today...

Tried (!!!!) to talk to DH last night about how I was feeling etc. I got the whole "No, you are fine, why do you need to go back on them, stop being so silly" attitude.. GRRRRRR men! I know that if everything falls down into a heap, I'll then get the "why didn't you tell me earlier how you were feeling" attitude!!!
It's like he and his job etc are WAy more important than what is happening here. He sees me as being a great mum and great at keeping the house going, but as much as I try to get across to him, he can't see what is going on inside my head! I try to explain that I feel that things are starting to slide, but he seems to gloss over them.

and then he asks for sex.....

so after not listening to me while I pour my heart out and try to get across how afraid I am that I my be backsliding, he is like "aren't you ovulating by now, shouldn't we be having sex.."   

whoo hoo.....

I sarted on meds just over a month ago for the 1st time & that was a big step so can only imagine that getting off & the thought of going back on would/could be soul destroying!! I had taken myself off a few days ago because I was always tired, was still loosing it with the girls but after a couple of days without the tiredness lifted & I could notice that thing were better than a couple of months ago, went to drs again & got meds changed, also made sure it is safe to take while ttc/preg. Dr very good explained side effects, when they may come in, ways to get thru some of the side effects. Also said that when preg quantity may have to be increased because of hormone changes, also after baby born (only if up to 4+ tabs a day) may have to have a bit of help 'coming off drugs' but as she put it 'far more important to have them & be well than be unwell & something go wrong!"
Also for the sake of a few days if you going to dr on tuesday, maybe don't start something incase as you said they may want to change - I have to be off my last lot for 7 days before starting new ones
Good luck for the next while & someone said to me yesterday LOOKING AFTER YOURSELF IS LOOKING AFTER YOUR FAMILY
As for DH, maybe try writing him a note (long indepth letter?) letting him know what is going on & that at the moment he is only seeing the surface but the erosion is about to hit the top & you want help before that hits - please!

Amy - what is MMH?? As you can tell by my question, have no idea what it is.

When I originally went to the doc, I was just put on meds. DH did ask about counselling etc, but he was kinda "put in his place" as in the doc was like she doesn't need that... I have basically battled it all on my own... Last Oct I felt like the meds weren't working anymore so I went to see a different doc. He wanted to put me on a different anti-d so I had to do a FAST withdrawal from Aropax (went from 2 tabs a day to nothing in a month - I dont reccomend it to anyone....) After I came off them, he wanted me to wait a week then see him again to get the new meds. never went back...

Emma - Men are so typical sometimes.... Its like they think that they have paid attention for all of 5 minutes, so "shwing!!!" DH cracks me up sometimes with his "so can we have sex now...." attitude....

Man, I am learning more from you guys than I did at the useless old doctors!!! I wish that I had been referred to MMH... Anyhoo. Feelin OK today. Have been working on some new products. Hope to open my webpage/store soon.... (stay tuned!!!)
DH is away in tauranga tonight, so just me and the two boys... (One of which is curled up on my lap purring his little head off...I think he thinks if he's cute he'll get more food.....the cat that is! ) Am going to try to get to bed early tonight... hopefully I will be able to sleep. I generally can't sleep when DH is away... (stupid huh, and I have the whole bed to myself..sort of. That is if the cat doesnt claim most of it!!!) I also have too many things running around in my head.... Just excited about this business venture i guess.

I am not going to go to the docs tomorrow. I'll wait and see how things pan out... Maybe I am just uptight about TTC and the business stuff...We shall see..Could be famous last words! I'll keep ya posted!

Bee how did you get on at the Dr's?

Mum of two you are not a bad mum. You are great in knowing that you need help!
Happy pills are there for a reason, if you are on them for 1 month or 1 year so be it, they are there to help us get through the rough times that we just can't do on our own! PND is not something we can cope with on our own.

i didn't have family support but had MMH who were my support, I don't know where I would be without them.
There are a lot more networks than we think, it just pays to ask the GP & Plunket & PAFT