Admitting is the first step

 

Edited by amy

Thankyou, Im just so scared to really admit anything is wrong, I feel like once its out and the doc knows then its real, crazy how our brains work.
I cannot go on with these feelings, its not fair on me or my poor family. But hell I havent told anyone the full extent of what I really feel, I told plunket about 1/2 of it and she thought that was bad

Thankyou, if you dont mind me asking, what was your plan? what did the doctor do for you?

Thankyou for the insight, I too have had anxiety and panic attacks for years, but again ive not told a doctor. It wasnt until mum said she had been put on pills for anxiety that I asked her how she felt, everything she listed I thought was "normal" I thought everyone wanted to throw up at the thought of having to leave the house, and locking yourself in the house was what safe people do!

I better mention everything to the doc ha?
Im so scared, be back later

Good on you for realising you need help, and taking the first step. I know its a really scarey thing to do.
I constantly asured myself that all my feelings were just the way I was/ because I was sleep deprived/ stressed etc,...it wasnt til things with Isla settled down a bit and I had time to think about how I was feeling that I realised that I really had to get some help, for me and my family. I was pretified of needing to go on meds, and being labled as having depression.
I felt the huge relief after just talking to my Dr too. He referred me for counselling, and Im on meds too.

Good luck for today. You are doing the right thing. There is support out there, but they cant find you if you hide away!

Thanks Ladies ((((((hug))))))
The doctor was great, shocked, but great. He called in another lady who is a counsellor there to have a little chat too.
They have put me on Citalopram and ativan, and have referred me to the maternal mental health people.
I think having James was just the Icing on the cake so to speak, I lost a baby last year and didnt know it had died till my scan, I was by myself and ended up at the hospital I sat there for 12 hours and had started bleeding and cramping in the friken waiting area! Long story but it was traumatic, then Si had his accident and i had to nurse him for 3 months as he couldnt shower himself or eat, then we moved to Palmy and Si had to stay in Aucks........I had alot of hospital admissions while pregnant and was super sick doing it alone with a 2 year old, then james's birth etc.

So I have alot to work through but even more to be thankful for

Mum2Paris I was trying so hard to not cry when I saw you today at the doctors, sorry I didnt say much.

Edited by kell

Kell def get them to come to you. But as you said admitting is the first step and it is always the hardest step.

If i had known i would have come and talked a bit more.. i just stayed away cos i didn't want you guys to get our dreaded lurgies... lol.. till paris goes "hey, that's a lady from mcdonalds", and just came up to talk to you.

aww kell big hugs to you hun, hey if you ever want to hang out for a coffee give me a yell, just pm me and we could meet up, We are moving in a couple of weeks to Tokomaru, well in between tok and Linton.