How do you cope?

I've always been a silver-lining kind of person. Even from the depths of depression when I was a teen, or after a loss in my life, or some major disappointment that left me reeling, I could always envision something to hang onto. It didn't even take any effort. It was just... my default.

I feel like infertility is robbing me of this. It's changing who I am. For the first time in my life, I can't see any hope on the horizon. Maybe this just means that I'm done. If this third IVF cycle is a bust, I can't see myself going forward. At least, not with my own eggs. Maybe not at all. I don't know.

I'm so tired of all of the heartache, the false starts and the disappointment.

I don't know how to cope right now.

It turns out that because we're doing a freeze-all and PGS, my doctor isn't going to call me until the end of the week. And then, it'll take another couple of weeks for the genetic testing results to come in. And I don't even care. I'm not nervous or anxious. I just... want this to be over. I have no hope at all right now.

I don't know how to cope. With that key part of my personality gone, I just don't know what to do with myself right now. I'm so uncomfortable in my own skin.

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Edited by ben266338 - 16 February 2021 at 6:32pm