DAMN IT!!

Well, here i am, feeling like utter bollocks. Needing some opinions and probably just an ear to talk to. After all the guff of the past few weeks i thought i was actually getting close to being ok, then what do ya know i have 4 afternoon shifts and then 2 overnights, coupled with well, obviously a serious lack of any sleep let alone decent sleep. This is one of my major big time triggers. I am back here and have started having a few momentary anxiety attacks again where i don't like to be alone and feel a bit blank like i did after having paris. most of the time, 99% of it, is fine, but other times I just find myself on edge and antsy and anxious and I really find that hard to cope with, i am just waiting an hoping to get back on track. I want to cry but it just won't come.

I know there are others out there who have this kinda thing. I have always got through without meds, it's always just been a matter of addressing whatever it is that's upset the cart... I guess i just need some support, I've been fairly blank through all that's happened lately.. i knew it would catch up some time soon.

Argh it sucks i just want it to go away and to get some decent sleep.

I find sleep & stress also sets me off no matter how good I have been. I hope you get a chance to catch up on much needed sleep .... saying that also I remember getting off here last night at about 3am not sure if its not wanting to go to bed or just wanting someone else to be out there to talk to!?

Kez - i was much the same - came on here last night to find someone to chat to as mike was at speedway and i was all alone.. talked to Teresa on MSN till her pav was done cooking. by which time mike was nearly home.

Feeling a little better today but still very aware of that edgyness in the background so might go off for an arvo sleep. The girls mostly have been ok today but Paris and her attitude is driving me batty, i just get slightly calm and she just goes and gets me a bit pissy again.