seeking help

Ok, Am in here now cos i am off to the docs tomorrow to try and get referred for some counselling after a bit of a long-running melt down over the last few days that ended in me bawling my eyes out to my sister over the phone this evening. I have called in sick for work cos another night shift with the sleep deprivation thing would just make me worse. I have had anxiety atatcks over being at home alone because when i'm alone the thoughts come back and fears come back and they make me even more upset which brings on the anxiety again. Am fine around others but can't keep being afraid of being alone with myself nad my thoughts.

So after reading the alternative to meds thing - eating better, sleeping more and multi-vits.. do they work? Are they better than meds? I am freaked out about taking anything in the way of meds in case it makes me worse but I just want something to pull me out of this low. I go through this typ eof thing from time to time but am feeling right now that when i have the low moments that they are 100 times worse than when i was at my worst with PND after having Paris. My sister thinks that despite not having baby, that my hormones have been messed up since the m/c.. which i could tend to agree with, she thinks the PND has come back with a vengeance from the lack of dealing with all the things that have happened. I know deep down i definately need some sort of outlet counselling or something cos of all the bollocks that went on last year that i just pushed under the carpet which has come back to bite me so to speak. I think for me it's the grief thing, having all these losses in a short amount of time it has just gotten to me, as long as i dont think about it it's ok, but i can't keep just pushing it under the carpet and not thinking about it, i need to deal with it and get on.

Any help or suggestions would be great. I never thought it would come to this, I feel relieved at the thought of going and seeking help and telling others cos it means it's not a battle i'm fighting alone anymore, but it also scares the hell outta me for the road ahead.

I think you are doing the right thing by going and getting help and counselling!! Thats a huge step!

With alternatives to meds, I think that is very individual. I chat about this with a friend ALL the time. So my view is that meds are great if you have chemical issues going on. If it's purely mental/emotional then they don't help and alternatives and professionals (psychologists/counsellors) are far more likely to help.

I agree with Stacey, this is a huge step you are taking in the right direction.
I have a friend going through counselling now and is doing her wonders to just talk to someone.
Good luck with your appointment today!

I had Citalopram and it just took the edge off...great :)

Good luck with the counseller!

I don't know if I woud say these things are 'better' but they can certainly help - and counselling is a great first step to take!

I have to say one thing though - if it comes to it, don't feel ashamed about going on medication. It doesn't have to be long term. And my favorite comparison is this - you (generic) wouldn't expect a diabetic not to take insulin would you?

Big hugs, and let us know how you go.

lizzle wrote: no idea luv, but bi9g hugs to you!

yep same from me here too... i'm sure the girls on the board who have been in the same boat will be able to give you lots of help and everyone else will be there with support...


had to edit realised i was missing words...

Edited by Bizzy

Hey chick bug hug's. You doing the right thing getting the help you need hope you find a good consellor.