To Hope or Not to Hope

I started bleeding yesterday ended up at the hospital, the scan shows a tiny 5 week old not a 8 week old as I am, the blood tests showed the same.

My midwife same we can not be concluive until we have more blood on Monday to see if the hormone level has fallen although she can see the hormone and scan results are not positive.

It hurts so much I can hardly breathe at the moment , I went to bed crying and woke up at 5 crying, Its seems so unreal, I know baby is dead but theres this slither of hope that maybe the bloods will come back differently on Monday and its all been a big mistake.

I know i'm stupid for doing this to myself and should just face it know but I can't. I rang my mum and she was in tears and I thought I need you to be strong for me but she couldn't.

Should I face it now or hold onto the fact that Monday could change things for the better?

I am so sorry honey. I say dont give up hope until you hear otherwise. Prepare youself that it might not be positive news but dont give up hope at all. (if you pray then pray if you chant then chant.)

I have several friends that this same thing happened too and it came down too the ovulated a bit late and actually concieved later than they thought. (sperm can stay in the body for quite a long time so even if you didnt have sex for a few days conception can take place.)

I really hope you get some postive news back on Monday.

Sending you lots of positive thoughts and prayers.

I was the same, but we had no bleeding beforehand to tell us things were wrong, just went to see our baby on the scan to find no heartbeat... and waited a week hoping it was just a fluke cos our baby was the right size, and well formed and all that. however, in that week i just really lost all hope. Sometimes i think you just know and the first thing you do with this sort of thing is think .. "maybe, hopefully, what if?", feel sad, cry and grieve if you want to - holding out all hope sometimes isn't the best idea. If everything looks up on monday then what a great great surprise that will be for you.

are you certain of your dates? completely and utterly? cos there's always room for error with that sort of thing.

will be thinking of you over the weekend.
hugs to you

big hugs last year when i had a MC i was ever so hopeful the whole way through until i got the very last bloods saying that they were back to 0, i guess i hoped that they would maraculously have risen up and the heavy bleeding meant nothing. It totally sucks!!! and i hope you start to feel a little better as time goes on.

big hugs
I remember being told i had to wait a week for another scan but i rang and go the hcg blood results the next day and it had started going down and I wish I hadnt of found that out because i still had almost a week till my next scan but I still held on to the possibility that one baby might have survived.
Its such a horrible waiting game isnt it. Will be thinking of you!