I don't really know what to say Janine. In some ways I'm sad for you because I think your "angel baby" really just showed you how much you wanted to have another baby. And now the hope for ever having a third child is gone. But at the same time I'm pleased for you guys, this is what you wanted, you'll be able to get out of debt and get married (with two pretty flowergirls I bet!), the sense of finality will hopefully enable your emotions to settle properly (because hope,TTC,un-TTC,maybe,maybenot.... is a pretty big rollercoaster!).... big hugs hun! Give yourself room to grieve the loss of that hope if you need it, don't forget the chocolate! and go ahead and plan that wedding!