Something preying on my mind

Obviously I cant speak from the 'cant have one so want one' side of it but i can say no matter how you are feeling now, when you finally hold your baby (an you will one day hold your baby) those thoughts will disappear. Your life will change and within even a couple of weeks you wont remember what it was like before your child was in your life, they become your life to a degree. Think about it, how many normal everyday loving people regret having children. I was never sure i really wanted children, but i hated the thought that i might get to say 40 and really regret having them plus its kind of expected that you have kids isnt it, but anyway my point is that i could not imagine my life without them now and wouldnt change it for anything. Also these thoughts could be a bit of a self defence thing, if your hopes arent up and you think maybe you dont want to change your life then you might not be disappointed if it doesnt happen for a while but when it does happen I reckon you will be sweet.

everything i was going to say has already been covered and i totally agree with robyn and kaz. once you hold your baby, you won't remember ever having these thoughts.

there will be big parties all over nz when you announce your bfp! we are all hear for you ginger and can't wait for that day

sending big hugs and baby vibes to you and dp

I think the mind is a complicated and wonderful thing, and many thoughts are there to protect us in a strange way. When we were TTC there were times when I was absolutely convinced that I had gone off the idea of having children and I would speak about this thought to close friends and my DH. However in hindsight, it was never true, I think it was just a protective thing to stop me from going insane. It's also completely natural to freak out even once you are pregnant. Even though I am so so happy about finally being pregnant, I still have days when I ask myself 'what have I done?!?'. Of course even when the baby is born there will be days like that! It's natural to feel this way sometimes. But you'd never give them back! I don't believe that you want a baby just because you haven't been able to have one yet. That's just your mind playing tricks on you. Ginger the long road that you have travelled while TTC has allowed you alot of time to analyse your every thought, and to try and make sense of those thoughts. But try not to over analyse. You have had a hard time of it, this is not easy, but it's still something that you want so much. I am absolutely positive you will get there, and then like me, you will thank God (or whoever!) every day. Hang in there Girl.

Honey even tho i wasnt TTC as long as you i still had those thoughts i totally understand and i even had them when i was pregnant but i put that down to hormones and lack of sleep haha but when they are here its truely the most amazing thing ever and your heart just opens up more to make room for the love you create instinctly for them!!

You are going to make a WONDERFUL mother so please please please DO NOT give up hope!!!!

Ginger

It's all been said, and really well too

Have a *nice* bikini wax...