Panicking

Little cherub - more like a little toad! But she is the spitting image of her daddy - I call her my little white Willie hehe.

Thank you for sharing your story Nikki. I can kind of relate, Willie was happy that I was preg to start with, then started drinking again (he is a recovering alcoholic) so we split up when I was 15 wks preg, then got back together, then split up again when Maya was 3 mths old. He wasn't involved in the pregnancy at all, never came to the scans etc, or to her birth, and for the first 12 mths of her life she saw so little of him that she didn't even recognise him. he came drunk to her christening, and when she was in hospital at 10 mths and really really sick he never came to visit once.

But luckily for her (andme ) he has had a huge attitude readjustment and for the last year he has been awesome with Maya, looking after her when I need time out, came to her meningitis jabs... So good in fact that I remembered what I loved about him to start with, and we are getting married

Anyways, I didn't want to hijack your thread, but I think you are doing a great job with Hannah, I know how hard it is to be a single mum with no/very little support (and at uni). You are a legend!

hey Nikki do you have hannah in the halls in wellington?

thanks guys
I'm having a great time, and to be honest i've got it way easier financially than a student couple with a baby. (Yes, am using your tax money for my education!) Can't wait to get out there and do it on my own though... well, as soon as I get over my fear of being in the big wide world.

Lizzle... yep I'm in the halls. Everton Hall, which is a whole lot of flats for mature students. I managed to get a one bedroom and have since weaseled my way into the flat next door which has 6 people. So really my little flat is an extention of the other flat. They miss Hannah if they don't see us all day! One of the students there is also a reliever at one of the VUW creches so she is mighty handy to have around! No shortage of baby sitters - heaps of clucky girls around!

And this site has been a huge help to me. I remember when I found out I was pregnant I was searching on the net to find out more about what was going on with my body and I came across this site. It has been awesome being a part of this message board for the advice but most of all just for the contact with other mothers. I don't know a lot of them! So - You guys are fantastic! And it is cool seeing someone like you Emma, who had a bit of a crap time at first, come out the other end still smiling and with a gorgeous little girl to show for it! It's all motivation for me

yeah i was wondering that the other day too actually..

oh, Tonielllis, I'm so sorry!

So sorry to hear that, toniellis. My sympathies to you and your family.

That is sad to hear. Hugs to you.

So sorry for your loss toniellis