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It's such a hard step to take admitting that you might have this. I know I lived in denial for a while, and Blair was just a bit younger than Caden is now (if memory serves me right) when things cranked up.

Good for you talking to your Mum about it all, It can be a tough, scary time.

I totally understand you feeling like you hating who you are right now. Somedays it seems like no matter what we do with our little ones, it's not right, all they want to do is scream and cry (and I have to admit once when B cried, so did I - it was all I could do) Take things easy, I found suddenly not making big plans, and having some major chill out (1/2 PJ days) who cares if the housework isn't done as long as we're feed and 'watered' and warm days helped a little bit. I also contacted MMH who helped me see my way straight with a couple of things, and made a couple of suggestions too.

Celebrate the small achievements, and take each day as it comes. We're here if you need or want to chat

big hugs to you, and yah for knowing something was up and talking to someone, have you thought about going to the doctors and talking to them, im not suggesting you need to take antidepressants but taking to the doctor will give you a good idea on how to go from here

am thinking of you my friend

Oh and just wanted to say... Caden will still love you even if you have those fleeting thoughts and the lovely thing is that while its hard dealing with them when they're screaming (poor Caden and mummy!), the smiles and giggles, and milestones, are therapeutic for you. Take it easy and don't expect to be supermum, cos Caden isn't going to care what you or he is wearing, what the house looks like or anything like that, but I bet he'd love mummy just blobbing around with him for a few days

Hey Sheena, its a huge step to actually get to this point and you have done sooo well to get here.  You may find this link helpful http://www.tabs.org.nz/  

When you are talking to your mw ask about a getting help from plunket, I think you need to be referred before you Caden is 12mths for help from them, may be quicker than getting into MMH, also ask about getting some councilling to work thru the birth if your mw cant help with that then speak to your GP.

One thing that has helped me along the natural remadies, (I have been off precription meds since xmas last year) I have been taking Res-V Plus, My mum heard about it on news talk ZB, Lani Lopez has a slot on one of the afternoon shows, you can also read about it on www.abouthealth.co.nz   it does say not to take while preg or breast feeding but I think that is more that they havn't any stats/testing done on results.  I have been taking it all thru my pregnancy and this one being the best I have felt out of the 3,  I also emailed Lani to see what contraindications, this is the reply

Hello Kerryn

It’s lovely to hear that you feel great while taking Res-V Plus.

We do not recommend you take Res-V Plus while you are pregnant. In theory there is no toxicity or adverse effects that can happen during pregnancy however we do not have the research papers to prove the safety and efficacy during pregnancy or breastfeeding (even though I took it during mine).

There are many things you can do to support your pregnancy and moods. Talk to a naturopath  to help you through this transition. You can visit some health stores and pharmacies that have instore naturopaths and or you can visit www.naturopath.org.nz.

Best wishes

Lani Lopez

I have continued to take it and all is great, yep I still get my bad days but there are far more better times than bad & I notice if I miss taking them for a day or so.

Sorry this is such a long post but it is hard to condense things sometimes, keep talking to people and don't feel ashamed to ask for help or tell someone you are feeling crap*y if they ask, most people wont see what is going on in your mind or know how you are feeling until you are able to tell them.  You may be surprised to see where the help will come from

Good luck and hope you start seeing better days more often soon!!

We are here to talk if you need to

I take fish oil tabs & muliti vits to keep me well

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Big hugs Sheena, I hope you are feeling better